NO MORE DRAMA, Loving ME!!!

Hey Mamas,

I will first say ...hate it or love it you might not like what I have to say or the things I do. Regardless of my critics I can say I'm truly happy. Eleven years of tears and uncertainty of who I am and was the man I  truly loved the one for me I woke up. I feel like I woke up out of a long nightmare that was called my life. Summer of 2010 I had wanted change but didn't have the confidence nor the will to change and fight for my life. November 2010...I had my birthday and change was heavy on my heart. I deserve better I thought to myself. After a some more crazy incidents in my life with people that so called were suppose to care and love me, I decided enough was enough! A truly special woman(Ariel) one night called me on the phone and gave me the strength to move forward. November 16th was a mark of my independence and freedom.


     I loved a man for many years and only wanted to please him. Nothing is wrong with loving your man but when you lose your self in the process something is very wrong. Who is Heather I asked myself standing in the mirror so many times. Years of abuse can take its toll on your spirit and mind. So after a fight of gaining my independence I have now arrived. I have six boys that count on me to be strong and I will meet their expectations. My new found confidence and strength helped me to go out on dates and feel great with the male energy around me. I hope to one day find true love and be happily ever after but for now I'm so good with being single.

In my new found freedom I got the shock of my life. At my sonogram just recently I was told I'm having a baby girl. I cried and laughed during my sonogram. Finally my baby girl is within me. She came because I changed. No more circles I have learned my lesson. She is within me because The Creator saw I was ready for her and my situation is safe. I look forward to seeing her and giving her all my wisdom. My little queen among many little soldiers that will love her dearly. I'm happy...finally and I deserve every moment of it. No more drama in my life! Peace of mind is golden.


Peace Mamas...(Healing7)

      

Daddy's Girl...

    A father can put his daughter up on his shoulders and show her the world...


     I was and still am "A Daddy's Girl" and for good reason. At a young age we watch our fathers to see what we want in a man. We watch them take care of the house hold and how they treat our mothers. Bad and good can be shown but we accept it because as a child you only know what you see and hear to be true.

My life has taken a big change. Coming out of a very long and painful relationship can be difficult. Your trust in men can become very hard to do. I view men differently for right now as I heal. You hold up a shield not wanting to get hurt or really to interact with the opposite sex. In all this change, pain, and healing my father gives me hope. I watched my father step in my life and my sons to show me what I should have in a man. A man protects and takes care of his family. He communicates and no matter how late it is he keeps his word. I will not accept anything less than what my father has shown me. I don't think I'm fully restored in men but my father and sons are helping me in that area. My focus is to make my sons into men that have integrity and respect. The world is so lacking good men. So I look into all my son's eyes with hope of the future.


-PEACE (Healing7)

Healing...

Hey, Hello, I'm back...

Yes, I took a hiatus. Sorry I was gone for so long. My birthday is coming soon and since my last birthday my life has totally changed. I have lost close friends and family members out of my life. My views on many issues and beliefs have changed. The changes in my life hurt but its helping me to heal. I was talking to my mother and she gave me some things to think about. Its always wise to speak to older women and receive wisdom. I have done a lot of reflecting on my life and understand each day has to be taken with thought and care. Sometimes we allow our minds, hearts, spirits to be trapped in box not allowing ourselves to be free. We have so much to learn and different levels of of life to embark on. Life being contained in a box is scary. In my process of healing I chose to come out of the conforming walls. I choose not to be suppressed by anybody or anything. Happiness is what we all search for and I'm on the quest of finding it. I think I will be happy for my birthday to come with a renewed heart and spirit. So much has changed but for the good. Healing is a process and I'm getting better with each day.


-Peace Mamas

The Nail Quickie ...

    In the life of a mommy on the go you want to look nice while doing it all. Most times I focus on my hair and face looking the most appropriate to get through the day. My nails are last because I feel like I never really have enough time for them to dry. I started making sure I give my self a pedicure once a week, but I still neglected my hands. I was at Walgreens with my sister buying makeup and we started looking at nail polish. Wet n Wild has been my favorite brand of nail polish but I never found them to make nail polish that dries fast. I looking in the Wet n Wild  section and see their FAST DRY nail polish. They have an array of bold colors with corky name like "Grey's Anatomy","Everybody Loves Redmond", and "Sage in The City". I got "Everybody loves Redmond" and I love the tomato bright red color. The nail polish is only $1.99 and you can get the clear top coat paired with another color at Walgreens for $1.99. I finally took time to paint my nails and toes and guess what....Wet n Wild Fast Dry is wonderful! The first coat of nail polish dried in about 60 seconds and the second coat dried just as fast. I was able to paint my nails and toes in under 15 minutes. I give this product 3 stars for fabulous mommies on the go. Try it you will love it!

BB Mama's Health & Beauty Issue

 Hey Mamas!

 Life is for the living and we must continue to grow and learn. On my journey of life I'm choosing to make healthy changes. As I once heard "We don't live to eat ...we eat to live." Healthy eating is vital for us to survive and maintain balance. I have found it actually easy to start making steps to eat healthier and have fun preparing meals. I want to share with you my journey and keep you updated with product reviews, healthy tips and meal plans. Now I wouldn't be "Beauty Mama" without having some fun reviews. Yes, I have some great products for you to run and buy! I have tried some great beauty products and the reviews will be featured in this issue. I know it's been a little hiatus but that's life. Hello again I hope you still like & love my blog.


-Peace & Abundance
  HEV (BB Mama)

The Real Rose Colored Glasses...

Yesterday I saw this commercial about HD Aviators. The commercial shows you how the glasses enhance the colors and make images clearer. Now at first I'm thinking wow. Then I'm thinking why the hell does reality need to be enhanced. You go outside the sky is blue, the sun is yellow, and the grass is green. Why do we need to see colors enhanced that are part of the nature elements of life? So when we take off the glasses after wearing them for 20 minutes to an hour... reality will set in that this world is too dull in color.

     We want our television watching, music, DVDs, and Internet service in HD. Now we must look at real life in HD because life isn't satisfying any more. Technology has invaded our lives in every way we can imagine and we love it. Many of us live our lives with our "Rose Colored Glasses" on. We would rather not deal with the truths of many things and people. Now we have real life  rose colored glasses to go with a mind set of people. Reality is sad and boring... lets enhance it to make it fun and bright. Gods creation is wonderful its the one true thing that needs not to be enhanced. Lets all take off the rosy glasses and breathe a little reality in. Seek truth in everything and face real life...it makes you stronger.

Dear Old Hev,...

Growing is always needed whether it be physical or spiritual growth. Yesterday I heard a song by Nicki Minaj  from her album Pink Friday called "Dear Old Nicki". As I listened to the song it was about her talking to her old self wanting her to come back but knowing she has changed and Old Nicki wont be coming back. Today I can relate to that song and there is a lot I can say to Old Hev.


Dear Old Hev,

         You will never be forgotten because you will always be apart of me. Hev you did good finding your way and ignoring all the naysayers. When nobody was your friend and you were avoided by others you kept your head up. You still pursued to love Christ in spite of adversity. I still admire your strength. You had one little boy that's now seven. Look at you Hev...you thought you couldn't be a good mother. Jasiyah, your oldest he is doing fine. You taught him well in the ways of The Lord. Now he is teaching his little brothers. Things you prayed to happen are existing. God has heard all of your prayers. Your parents came through and understand you will be ok. I don't prove my self to nobody no more...the fight is over. Your sisters and friends may not be the same circle but, all are well. I know you believed in keeping everyone together but, your job is done now. The long locks are a now a short fro. I know you loved the long hair but it had to go. No more flowers in the hair.I have matured in fashion and refined my look. My spirit has grown and the name has changed. I'm more humble but confidence remains to grow. I look for you sometimes and I see you in passing. I just wanted you to know I miss you . I'm moving on but your not forgotten. I'll never say good bye ...but always later.


-HH...Peace

Revisiting The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill

Thirteen years ago Lauryn Hill's album The Miseducation of LAURYN HILL came out and hit the radio waves hard. Now 2011 I'm in the van with my sons listening to her album. Wow, its been a minute but I remember every song and memorized every verse. Lauryn brought something new to the table while most female rappers talked about sex, money, and designer clothes. She was a breath of fresh air for a young girl like me. I needed  a better influence than Lil Kim an Foxy Brown. When Doo Wop(That Thing) song came out it made me think. I was in the car with my best friend and her mother. "Lauryn's voice came out powerful through speakers saying " It's silly when girls sell their soul because it's in

Look at where you be in hair weaves like Europeans
Fake nails done by Koreans,Come again...."

She spoke to her people wanting more for them. Now as a woman I revisit her words, her songs, and her life during this time. I listen to her music and my sons ask questions about the things she may say and I understand.  Lauryn songs were of the trials and tribulations she was living and she shared them with the masses. She had her part in the process of me wanting to change. Her words stuck with me and now I can say I have stood the test of time to see my change.Her album is timeless...a classic that now my sons can enjoy.